Real stories, issues or problems and their solution.

At this stage of life,  when I have everything but nothing actually,  I feel as if I am not the victim but the culprit of my situations.  I have committed a crime of being into a relationship of marriage, that so many females do but how many are happy with it. I don't think even half of it.  Today when I want to breathe, to live,  to think about myself and my son's future,  seems as if the whole of the world is against me.  No matter where I go,  whom I talk or approach,  everyone thinks of his own benefit even before they bother to reply to me. Be it a police officer,  advocate sitting in a government office,  front desk person who is responsible for taking the complaints in women's cell or a neighbor who is aware of my existing situation which I have neither wanted nor invited still I am bearing bcoz I am a female.  That's the only and biggest crime of my life,  for which I am not responsible.  I haven't slept...

Many of us wait for a new year to start something new .. or to finish something which has been pending for so long ... here I am sharing small stories of 90's. I remember my school days... once I was eagerly waiting for new year ..just a day before, on 31 December everyone was decorating his or her area .. few young people arranged a dance competition in my locality. I was very crazy to see the dance as I was a dance lover. I was not allowed to go and watch the dance as my parents were scared of my age.  Some how I managed to go to the dance competition and enjoyed the dance and after returning tried to dance in the similar way of few dancers who performed well and got prizes over there. Copting the same move gave some injury to me and it seemed so awesome those days which looks foolish now. New year morning is about to come .. I knew a few of my many classmates will distribute greeting cards ..as I heard the gossiping... I could not afford any greeting card as my family ...

Lagta hai raaho me hi guzar jayegi tamaam umr meri.... Chund ik safon par reh jaye shayad bhuli si kahani meri... Zubaan khamosh hi rehti hai aqsar, khayal magar bolte hain kyu...zindagi tanha hi rehti hai bekhabar, mehfilo me hum firte hai dar b dar... Ik waqt tha raaste banate the, aaj chalne ko raahen naseeb nahi...falaq ko karte the mehsoos qareeb se, aaj apna kehne ko zameen mayassarnahi.... Manzilen bhi wohi hain, raahen bhi wohi- ba dastur chalne wala kaarvan badal gaya....apne bhi wohi hain, dhokhe bhi wohi- zindagi jeene ka magar nazariya badal gaya... Khwabo ki hasrat me haqiqat luta baithe, manzilon ko chahte hue lamhe ganva baithe....aaj ye aalam hai apni khwaishon ka, zindagi jeene ki khatir zindagi luta baithe..... Masruf hai har ik shakhs-  Apni hi tanhai me aaj kal; Shikva tha milta nahi waqt- Apno se hi milne ka, Afsos magar fursat milti nahi- Khud se karen mulaqat aaj kal; Ik waqt tha jo verano me bhi- Nahi mayassar hua apni aawaazo ko sunna, Laut aaya ka...